When I was a teenager, I had a short scuffle with
anorexia. That, I always knew began
after a comment from a relative I hadn’t seen in a while. They commented jokingly on how I’d gotten
chubby. It was pretty much immediately
after that when I decided to stop eating regularly and drink a gallon of water
before bed at night. I dropped just
over 20 pounds in a very short amount of time.
I don’t recall how or when I started eating again, but it was before I
had gotten to the point where anyone (except my mother) would worry.
Fast forward to today, over 15 years (ouch!) later. Recently, I was at a store and was overjoyed when every single piece of clothing in a “normal” women’s size (not plus sized) I tried on fit and fit well. My butt actually looked not only smaller than it was just 2 months before, but it looked awesome! I couldn’t wait to get home to put on my new normal clothes. When I did, I felt unbelievable. I can’t tell you the last time I felt like a normal person instead of noticeably fatter than everyone else around me. Much to my dismay, when I went out that day, no one I knew said anything. Not. One. Word. (Well, to my husband’s credit, he did, but he’s always complimented me.) I was instantly discouraged. Did I have a false image of myself? Did all my efforts really not show as much as I thought they did? It was at that moment I created the side-by-side comparison that most of you have seen (and if I figure out how to post it here I will) and posted it to my wall on Facebook. The response was overwhelmingly positive. Not only did I get the reassurance that my efforts really had made a difference, but to my surprise, some people looked at me as an “inspiration.” ME!
I say all of this not to make anyone around me feel bad, not to make you feel bad for me, and not to seek out attention. I said this because it's MY blog and I can say whatever the hell I want... but seriously. No matter who you are, or what your personality, you need POSITIVE support whether you think you do or not. If you find you do not have the support around you that you need, seek it out. I can’t tell you how much it will enhance your success, and your happiness!
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